It’s been a long week, and I think I’ve gotten to the point where I can’t pretend something’s not wrong anymore. But when I woke up this morning, I decided that I need to do something.

I mean, there’s no question that I want to go back… and it’s not even really a money thing, I guess. (I now think that was an excuse I was using to tell myself I was just overreacting.) But as far as that goes, I just wanted to say that I definitely appreciate the amazing kindness from all of you who have offered to lend me money to help me get home.

When it comes down to it, though, I’ve got friends here who can lend me what I need to rent a car. It’s way more than enough that you’re all trying to help me figure this out, and being so supportive. Seriously, I can’t thank you enough.

Anyway, I just wanted to update everyone about my plan. Whether it’s safe or not, I think I need to go back, or I’m not going to be able to forgive myself.

Like you guys have suggested, I’m not going to go back alone. I’ve got a friend who still lives in Utah. He lived in Piedmont until he was about 15, when his family moved to Ogden for his dad’s job. We’ve been in touch over e-mail this week. He told me last night that he was probably going to try to drive down this weekend. I’m going to call him, and see if I can meet him in Salt Lake City. It should be about a 10 hour drive from Cal, so I could be there by tonight, and we could be in Piedmont by early tomorrow morning.

Wish me luck, I guess.